With BML in aspect the planetary dynamics are working out differently. Even though Lilith represents a true universal clarity when the Lilith channel is open; ending up in rejection and denial because of traumatic experience’s on your Lilith position is part of the process. According to the Dutch Astrologer Bastiaan van Wingerden the process of having a traumatic experience is some sort of shock therapy to get back in touch with the universal clarity and your true qualities again. Somewhere down the line this aspect of yourself gets lost in this life and/or a previous life. Within this context its like a journey back home to your true authentic self, instinct’s and intuition.
Because of this process the planetary influence which is touched by BML ends up in rejection and denial. In case of a conjunction: The planet involved gets completely denied as long as the channel is closed. In case of the other aspects except for the trine there will be parts of the planet that will be denied and rejected. If it comes to the trine: The channel never completely closes. However Lilith and anything she touches is kind of subconscious to you: You just don’t identify with this parts of your nature. She stays a renegade within your personality. Not just to others if she comes out but also to yourself. Where others can see her and blow her out of proportion feeling threatened by her: You just don’t. At least not at the first half of your life.
Like I’ve said before: She is a paradox in essence and an autonomous psychological mechanism that somehow stands at it self within the personality.
One of the things which make Lilith so hard to explain is the fact that she works out very personal and different in every case. As well as the fact that she works out in layers. but I will give it a try. One of my readers AET shared her chart with me and responded to my Lilith in Aspect post with the following words:
Quote: “You give a very good substance for me to excavate my personal contact with BML (or any other symbolic Lilith point)… I recall that at about my early years most of the confrontations I have had within school and such were physical, and how I was smaller than everyone but just simply wouldn’t back off when it comes to intellectually expressing my “selfness” at a very young age, I believe I didn’t understand that I simply was not conforming to what other people expected.. I didn’t understand what it was, and yet of all the things to bring up in perspective in the present day, I found it was simply more “fuel” to my needs to protect my interests and my differences.. but yes at a very, very young age! I recall at about that time being a little girl having the boys who were much bigger than I was punching and kicking me.. and me fighting back and not giving up! Now to think that this was the energy of BML is very fascinating. (And yes it was wrong to be terrorized at school at a very young age and to be forced to feel as though no one was looking out for me, but what is grade school in society more than just an extension of the power structure out there big bad world? What was worse was it was also the teachers who were letting other children pound on me!)” Unquote.
True/Osc. BML at 22 Gemini in conjunction with her Mercury on top of her Ascendant.
Corrected/Natural BML at 11′ Gemini into the 12th house
Mean BML at 1′ Gemini into the 12th house
Which gives her a Lilith Zone of 10 degrees: The moment BML or one of the outside planets will be transiting through this zone it will become more visible to spot the process and realize what actually is going on, in sort of a harsh way. The hardest part of having a Lilith Zone of 10 degrees, is when one of the outside planets or BML herself go’s through the Zone by transit: Your first response will be to go back into rejection or denial again, because of the pain it triggers. Having a Lilith Zone of many degrees creates ‘a no way out’ situation; but the gift’s it contains will be more visible as well. Having the Lilith Zone into the 12th house isn’t the easiest position but it gives her a huge talent for: symbolism, photography, other visual arts, music, dance, mysticism etc.
She can actually speak, loud and clear (Mercury and the involvement of the sign Gemini) through 12th house instruments, and has a very clear insight into these; on a right brain level. As soon as she faced “the shadows” that have been build and repressed by the reactions of her cultural surroundings.
All this on top of her Ascendant will bring it out into the open in the end. But it’s not an easy road to walk. I do call my highly Lilithian people “emotional heavy weight’s” simply, because they are. It’s a lot to digest, but by digesting it you will clean the channel.
People with BML in conjunction with Mercury have very sharp minds which work differently: they function on a right brain perspective, and can see straight trough any first contact they’ll have. Even though they have tongue’s like razor blade’s, which scare’s many people, explaining themselves in an intellectual way can be very difficult for them; because they have to start thinking in slow-motion to do so. Which is hard for people with this position. They synthesize through right brain association which go’s to fast to pin down or explain.
Part of the trauma is they attract very strong reactions from their environment by spilling the beans in a split of a second. Without even realizing how spot on accurate they are. Usually people do not want to be confronted with what it is they are spotting and see them as a threat. On the other hand, they themselves feel nobody ever understands them. I have a client with this position: the guy is a walking lie detector. Highly controversial but don’t ask him how he knows, because he can not explain it to you; he just knows. He doesn’t talk much but when he does it cuts straight down through anything. He can look at you with eyes which do make you feel they can see straight through you, and it does give you an uncomfortable feeling: even if you have nothing to hide.
So, even when you are not aware of it yourself, people around you are dealing with a Lilith factor through you. It is deeply rooted in our collective subconsciousness to reject and refuse the Lilith dynamic, and to give it (in the worst case scenario) one hell of an opposition. It also attract the hate and irrational anger of those who are living their lives on their Priapus position in combination with having flaws into their personality, in terms of not having a fully developed healthy ego. If you are in touch with your Lilith position: your most authentic self and do have a healthy ego, It can get the worst out of people because you are the one carrying their projections.
If you have this position like AET has: True Lilith conjunct Mercury in conjunction with the Ascendant; the kids on the schoolyard are the first who will be spotting this and resent you for it. You on the other hand don’t have clue where all this resentment is coming from, because as a child you’re just purely expressing yourself. Part of having BML on top of the Ascendant, into the first house, or in aspect with the Ascendant or his ruler is: no matter what you do Lilith will shine through you on the most unexpected moments. You might not be aware of it but your environment is, and might respond to it the hard way. So: no help there…. Not even from the teachers, which should have protected her, within the situation.
According to Astrologer Bastiaan van Wingerden, People who have Lilith into the first house are in possession of magical bodies. They have soft but strong skin like rubber up until a high age, and they can work magic with their body’s. People with this position aren’t just top athletes if they go for it, but also have the gift of feeling what’s good or bad deeply through their physical bodies. They will have to face many physical problems themselves, but they also keep surprising doctors, because they can magically heal themselves from the most serious diseases and injuries.
I can confirm to you that this is true: I have Mean Lilith in trine with the ruler of my Ascendant, as well as in a square with my Ascendant, and True Lilith in the second house position. Which also is very physical (material) in a trine with Mars. To me this has been very interesting . But I am only one case and started to watch this in other cases: it doesn’t always work out like this but I have seen it in more cases. People with first house, in aspect with Mars and/or Aries Lilith positions, can literally work chi energy through their bodies Bruce Lee with his Mean Lilith in Aries, Corrected/Natural Lilith and True Lilith in Taurus, still is one of the best example’s if it comes to this. He didn’t only heal himself from severe damage at the central nerve in his back, which made him paralyzed for quite some time, but he also became famous because of his ‘One Inch Punch’ which you can google to see it happen.
Another First House/Aries/Mars issue is survival. The first house is the house of survival. People with this position keep ending up in survival situations: they will never ever start looking for a street fight by their own choice, but sooner or later somebody will pull them into one. It’s just a thing about this position which is very traumatic to these people. But you can bet your live on it that they will kick the hell out of you, if you are the attacker. The moment they get attacked the shock will sweep them onto the right part of their brain and the Lilith energy will start to work through their physical bodies The person with this position, as well as the attacker, will be in for a surprise. But it actually will scare the hell out of both of them. Subconsciously striking a person with your chi energy maybe sounds cool, but is not a joke. Physical work out’s to learn how to control the body is truly important for people with this position, and a great outlet which will keep these people healthy. They’ll have to re a just, re connect, and get back on terms with their Mars energies. But, like Jackie Brown, they all do have great survival skills, if it comes to it, in the end.
According to Carteret’s system if everything works out well: you get back in touch with your Lilith position after cracking Pluto (transit Pluto square natal Pluto), and by the time you have your second progressive New Moon, you can fully work with her. You can find more about how she works out in aspect in my previous post: Lilith in Aspect.
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